| Mirros and Questions |
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You're a miserable wretch (I speak to myself) How unfaithful can you be (Looking in the mirror now) How dare you speak to Him that way (It's ugly, what looks back at me) I'm sorry but I have to ask Why are you still here? I would've left me long ago Why are you still speaking? When I stopped listening months before Do you get it yet? (Here we are again) It's not His care you're missing (Back under the microscope) It's His care you're ignoring (Can't you see all of the disease?) I still don't quite get it How is it you love me? When I can't love myself Why is it your near me? When I've tried to run so far And I'm sorry but I have to ask Why are you still here? I would've left me long ago Why are you still speaking? When I stopped listening months before |
| Category: General - Music: None |
| Posted by: Tom, on 09.11.05. - Comments(2) |
| Nothing to say |
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There's really nothing to say at this point. One thing, though...sometimes when you have a desire to write a song that says a specific "something" you need to do something. That something is, at times, admitting that someone else has already said exactly what you want and merely giving creedence to them. So, without further ado, here is the Foo Fighter's song "The Last Song." "This is the sound The here and the now You got to talk the talk, the talk, the talk To get it all out I listen I listen I listen But you're out of tune You're so out of tune This is the last song (This is the last song) This is the last song That I will dedicate to you Something I've found Yea, That want to turn around You got to walk the walk, the walk, the walk To make any ground You're pushing You're pushing You're pushing But there ain't no room No there ain't no room This is The last song (This is the last song) This is the last song (This is the last song) That I will dedicate to you I made my peace And now I'm trough This is the last song That I will dedicate to you And yours is a name I will never name again I will never name again We pretend it doesn't matter We pretend it all away We pretend it all away We pretend We pretend We pretend But it ain't no use This is the last song (This is the last song) This is the last song (This is the last song) That I will dedicate to you I made my peace And now I'm through This is the last song That I will dedicate to you To you To you To you" That is all, have a good day. |
| Category: General - Music: Foo Fighters - Deepest Blues are Black |
| Posted by: Tom, on 08.31.05. - Comments(0) |
| Just a Quick Note |
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This is one of those nights where I have the utmost desire to write something to clear my head but can't. I've started to write a few things, but they just come out like a jumbled mess of text. Sometimes it's hard to get your feelings down on paper; sometimes it's even harder to seperate your feelings from each other.
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| Category: General - Music: Beck - Lost Cause |
| Posted by: Tom, on 07.24.05. - Comments(0) |
| A Few Writings |
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Three things I wrote today. One I am content with that it is finished, the following two may be a bit rought but I'll post them anyway. My dearest friend Where is it you have gone to? Why is it you have strayed? Are all of the wrongs you feel So great He can not heal them? Do you see The sadness of this place? And the walls falling around you When everything you believed Doesn't matter anymore? Pleading from a broken heart I've run out of words to say All I know is this If my heart breaks for you Our Savior's breaks ever so much more Only a question now remains For me to ask in earnestness Is Christ not more important than your pride? "The Submission of Returning" It's not the running away That hurts so much As it is the crawling back Over the rugged ground Of rebuke and discipline But there is love in the wounds And peace in His scoldings Submission finds one resting at His feet Not always easy Is the road that we've been called to And we don't always find The answers which we seek, right away Yet there is hope through the trying And light in the answerless darkness This now leaves me resting at His feet There is love; there is hope There is light, and there is peace In our submission to His perfect will "Directions/Demands" Where are we headed? I can not help but think This is not the right direction What does it take For a soul to leave complacency behind To follow at all costs? Do boundless grace and mercy not deserve this? Does blood-bought redemption come after us in line? Why do we ignore The pleas of Him who calls All of us His own? Does unfailing love not demand us? Does perfect holiness settle for less? Does perfect holiness settle for less? |
| Category: General - Music: Smalltown Poets |
| Posted by: Tom, on 07.18.05. - Comments(1) |
| An Important Letter |
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To Everyone, As we move through our lives, we all come to points where we have to make certain decisions. These decisions range from ones of utmost importance, to the minute – things like what shoes we will wear for the day. There are two decisions of the former category that we all must make. The questions which spur these decisions are ones which must be answered. The answers to these questions will affect the course of your and my lives from the point at which make them, on. The two questions are these: What will you do with Jesus, and what will your life revolve around? It is foolish to attempt the answer the second question without attempting to answer the first, so let’s start there. Throughout history there have been those who desire to overcomplicate the story of Jesus, but I don’t want to do that. I want to give you what you need to answer the question as simply as possible. The first thing you need to know is that there is a God, and that He is perfectly holy and just. This is important because of the next point: we have all sinned against Him. See Romans 3:23, “For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” Because of the previous two facts, God’s holiness and justness and our sin, we’ve created a huge problem for ourselves. Romans 6:23 explains that problem, “For the wages of sin is death.” See, because God is perfectly holy and just, He demands that our sin have a punishment. The Bible tells us that punishment is eternal separation and punishment from God in a place called Hell. Remember, this is something we are all destined for, because all of us have sinned. This sounds pretty bleak, but it’s not. Just a few sentences back I quoted Romans 6:23 but thank God the verse doesn’t stop where I did. It continues, “…but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” See, although because of God’s character we deserve His punishment, that’s not what He wants for us. A long time ago He promised to send us a way out. That way out was the Lord Jesus Christ. He came to earth as a man, lived a life without sin, and was crucified by those He came to save. The sacrifice of perfect, sinless God became our way out. John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son; that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” So what am I saying? I’m saying that you, me, and everyone else in the world deserves God’s wrath because of our sin. I’m saying that Jesus Christ died on the cross, taking God’s wrath in our place. I’m saying that all any of us need to do to escape the wrath of God is to put our trust in Jesus Christ, and I’m pleading with any of you who don’t currently believe to put your faith in Christ. There is nothing more important in this life than having eternal security. If you have any questions or want to talk more about this, feel free to talk to me. I would once again plead with you to make a decision to trust Christ today. No one of us is promised any more time than the breaths we’re taking right now. This leaves us with one more question. Everyone who has ever lived has to answer this question as well, no matter their answer to the previous one; however, my only concern with this question is towards those who have already trusted in Christ. What will our lives revolve around? This issue has been one whose importance has been increasingly shown to me of late, and that is why I want to talk about it for a minute. Every single one of us needs to step back from everything in our lives and ask a very important question: Does Jesus Christ hold a position of utmost importance and centrality in our lives? I think if we are honest, most of us will admit that this is not the case, and in doing so we should all be ashamed of ourselves. Remember, He died for us. More than that He suffered for us – a lot, we can never repay the debt we owe, and the least we can do is live for Him. I’m tired of hearing things (and saying them myself) like, “Well it’s too hard,” or, “I’m only human,” or some other garbage. Have we forgotten who we serve? God is not as weak as we make Him out to be. We have power in the Lord through the Holy Spirit and through prayer, but we don’t make use of them. Instead we ignore doing the right thing to keep doing things we want to do, and then whine about it when God doesn’t give us what we want. Good heavens, we are HIS! Why is it considered so out of reach to throw away everything that harms us and follow Him? How come we can be touchy and bitter and walk away from Him at the drop of a hat? Dear God, aren’t You more important than our own selfishness? I’m sorry if I am going off on a bit of a banter on this, but it is honestly something I have a strong conviction for right now. I’m just tired of all of us acting like God is some abstract concept. I’m tired of being content with “getting out of hell.” Christ’s blood is not a safety rope so we can dance around the pit of hell and still make it into heaven. I believe I will end this here for now. It is long enough, and it says everything I want to. If not, I can always put something again later. Thank you for reading. For those of you who have not accepted Christ, I can only continue to plead with you to do so. For those of you who have, I ask you to consider what I’ve said. Love, T |
| Category: General - Music: Jars of Clay - I'm in the Way |
| Posted by: Tom, on 06.27.05. - Comments(0) |
| Voodoo Child |
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So uhhh....yeah. I've been keeping so busy that I'm not 100% sure if I am up or down at this point. I've been a bit more edgy than normal the past couple of days with a person or two. I think it may be because I'm feeling tired, and we all know how I get when I'm tired. On the plus side, I'm tired from generally enjoying myself. It's generally a more pleasent tiredness than the one from school/work, but it really has the same result. Sometimes I feel like I'm fishing. I keep throwing myself in but getting nothing back.
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| Category: General - Music: Foo Fighters - The Deepest Blues are Black |
| Posted by: Tom, on 06.25.05. - Comments(0) |
| More |
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I'm unhappy. We could discuss why, but...well...why? It doesn't matter why. If you're drinking something, raise it up. Here's to being one of the broken.
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| Category: General - Music: Billy Corgan - To Love Somebody |
| Posted by: Tom, on 06.13.05. - Comments(0) |
| It's banter time! |
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I just needed a forum wherein I could voice some generalized opinions of certain things. Thus, I turn to this little corner of the internet that is undoubtedly read by no one. For once this is somewhat of a comfort and not an annoyance; because while I don't want to offend anyone, I do need some sort of outlet for what's going through my head right now. I don't feel like writing a little ditty or anything of the sort (though, mental note, I did write something the other day I should put up here so I don't lose it). So, instead, I banter. For the particular instance I am discussing in utter vagueness, I think it is appropriate to start with a quote. The quote is from a song, a popular song. The song is "For What It's Worth" by Buffalo Springfield. The quote goes a little something like this, "Nobody's right, if everybody's wrong." It's mind-numblingly simple, but applicable none the less. The situation at hand can be shown in the following diagram. Just picture a large number of these diagrams laid end to end, and you will get the picture: 
You see? Okay, now let us expand. In the course of human existance, the first object in this diagram is frequently exhibited. That is, people will do bad things to other people. If you don't believe this is the nature of our existance, you're obviously a brain-dead humanist and shouldn't be reading this in the first place. Go away. Anyway, as I was saying...People will do bad things to other people. There is no getting around this. Therefore, the beginning piece of this diagram is constant. It will always exist. The second part, however, is variable. It is entirely possible that, in the fact of a bad action, the person being acted upon may have a positive response. The fact that I use the word positive does not necessitate that the tone of said response must be happy and/or jovial; however, there are ways one may act which will diffuse and ultimately lower the frequency of the aforementioned inevitable bad actions. Unfortunately, in the blithering stupidity of our collective existances, this proper response is rarely, if ever, brought to light in the face of harassment of one form or another. Therefore, most of the time we end up with the diagram I have provided. So what's the problem? Remember before I said to picture the diagrams end to end, and a lot of them at that. There's a reason, when these diagrams take place in the manner I have drawn them -- they don't stop coming. When we react in the incorrect manner to difficulties, we merely bring more of them upon ourselves. You may think that I am saying that, after the first bad action from a particular person, we are responsible for any future bad actions if we react wrongly. No, that is not what I am saying. Here is where the quote I used above comes back into the picture. Once a wrong action occurs, the party being acted upon has the opportunity to be right in the face of the wrong; however, when the party being acted upon reacts inappropriately or wrongly, they are now just as wrong as the original actee. I am also not saying that we can stop all future bad actions by positive responses. This is quite far from the truth; however, let us sum this all up with exactly why I am advocating positive responses. First, although it is no guarantee, there is a good chance we will lessen the amount of bad actions from a particular party by responding in the right way. It is always possible that said acting party is going to continue their bone-headedness no matter what we do. If this is the case, it brings us to another point. Secondly, even if we do nothing to improve the overall span of bad actions, we may show ourselves an example of those who are above stupidity. If we continually respond in appropriate manner to bad actions, those around us will see this and it will have positive effects on other areas of our lives. Thirdly, if nothing else, it's just the right thing to do. I quote Matthew 5:38-44, "You have heard that it was said, 'An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooh.' But I tell you not to resist an evil person. But whoever slaps you on your right check, turn the other to him also. If anyone wants to sue you and take away your tunic, let him have your cloak also. And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two. Give to him who asks you, and from him who wants to borrow from you do not turn him away. You have heard that it was said, 'You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you..." I don't say all of this because I am perfect at this, but because I am convicted that I should attempt to be. It is useless for a man to believe something if he keeps it to himself. If you've read this, congrats, you made it through another one of my banterings. All my love & myself. |
| Category: General - Music: Silence |
| Posted by: Tom, on 06.05.05. - Comments(1) |
| Part 2 |
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Go Tom with the over-the-top drama for things that don't deserve it. Again.
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| Category: General - Music: Neil Young |
| Posted by: Tom, on 05.17.05. - Comments(0) |
| Honesty |
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I feel like a jerk. It's probably because I am. I hate myself because I am myself. I feel like I can never change because something always springs up that drags me down. The worst thing right now is that I don't know who to blame. Is it my fault? Probably partially, but I can't remove all blame from others who hurt me by the things they do and say. I'm supposed to love them and get along with them anyway but it isn't easy. I feel like I'm losing everyone. It's probably because I am. And it's all my fault.
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| Category: General - Music: =\/\/= |
| Posted by: Tom, on 05.15.05. - Comments(1) |